Fever Dreams

Fever Dreams.
Deep fear.
The kind that makes you flee,
instead of freezing.
Being frozen is only
a side effect.
Learning to recognize
Love,
what and who and where
Truth,
our own
Will,
when to know we're being called
Trust,
when to surrender
Partnership,
when to be led, when to lead

Fear is the teacher,
I am learning how to be afraid
Truly,
in trust
Madly,
in a way the outer world can't accept
Deeply,
in a way I have yet to see

The only path to love,
true love,
is allowing,
and surrender.
This I learn everyday.

Fear.
Not the opposite of love,
only crushed rose petals
along the path
to the inevitable.

--A Walker,
Fever dreams, Brighid's shift